This early morning, I'm full PTSD!
These words I'm about to write are not intended so you can pity me. I write so you can think or understand the sufferance a wounded soldier with PTSD might experience on a day to day basis. The following is my experience .
What does it mean for me today Jan 12, 2015 been full PTSD.
Went to bed this morning at 0100 hrs, I have been up since 04:00 hrs, as I open my eyes, I realised that I was having a nightmare. My wife is profondly asleep, so I got up.,
Every single morning the moment I wake up my head is invaded by one of my worst injury '' Tinnitus'' I was Diagnosed at 98% extreme Tinnitus...
What are some of the impact? First tinnitus is on 24/7 even when you are asleep. It is so loud in my head that I loose control of my inside emotion, my thoughts and I dissociate sometimes for a few minutes to hours and sometime days. In my case, Tinnutus and PTSD together it triggers, memory loss, Flashback, dizziness, orientation problems, hyper vigileance, depression, anxiete, panic attack, sadness, extreme tireness, isolation, suicidal thoughts.
All this awaits for me when I open my eyes first thing in the morning.
The day just started and I will share a few hours of my life. Like I mentioned, I woke up having a nightmare,and my tinnitus is very happy to make itself heard loud and clear.
Now the piece of resistence which is extremely hard for me to talk or write about. How am I feeling right now?
Today, after recuperating from the nightmare and once I overcame the high pitch noise of my tinnitus I got up and was already triggered. Sad, despair and thoughts that no one wants to really talk about.
Two steps away from the bed and I'm physically exausted and made my way to my computer, thinking will I be able to go throught today...
My first few hours I had to fight not to cry, cope with the fact that I'm stuck in a viscious circle that will only ceased if I end my life..
So I decided to write this post to try to ease my pain and at the same time it might reach and help someone.
Now it is 0700 hrs, I'm glad I wrote these few words, I wish I could give you more.
I wish all of you a wonderful day!
Veteran with PTSD - Klode
Veteran says Ottawa refusing to help treat debilitating condition
Read more: http://www.ctvnews.ca/canada/veteran-says-ottawa-refusing-to-help-treat-debilitating-condition-1.1822597#ixzz3Oi5FUCmA
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A veterans' advocate in Whitney Pier said he's been told by the federal government he can no longer help former military members navigate the bureaucracy of the Veterans Review and Appeal Board.
Keith Neville has successfully advocated for 48 veterans having their cases heard by the Veterans Review and Appeal Board, which provides veterans and other applicants with an independent avenue of appeal for disability decisions made by Veterans Affairs Canada.
In July, the board sent Neville a letter saying he was no longer allowed to represent any veterans in any future cases against the board.
"Forty-eight cases were done and 48 cases were overturned," Neville said Tuesday. "So I've been making them look bad."
READ MORE: http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/nova-scotia/advocate-keith-neville-ordered-to-stop-work-with-veterans-appeals-1.2899605
Went to bed this morning at 0100 hrs, I have been up since 04:00 hrs, as I open my eyes, I realised that I was having a nightmare. My wife is profondly asleep, so I got up.,
Every single morning the moment I wake up my head is invaded by one of my worst injury '' Tinnitus'' I was Diagnosed at 98% extreme Tinnitus...
What are some of the impact? First tinnitus is on 24/7 even when you are asleep. It is so loud in my head that I loose control of my inside emotion, my thoughts and I dissociate sometimes for a few minutes to hours and sometime days. In my case, Tinnutus and PTSD together it triggers, memory loss, Flashback, dizziness, orientation problems, hyper vigileance, depression, anxiete, panic attack, sadness, extreme tireness, isolation, suicidal thoughts.
All this awaits for me when I open my eyes first thing in the morning.
The day just started and I will share a few hours of my life. Like I mentioned, I woke up having a nightmare,and my tinnitus is very happy to make itself heard loud and clear.
Now the piece of resistence which is extremely hard for me to talk or write about. How am I feeling right now?
Today, after recuperating from the nightmare and once I overcame the high pitch noise of my tinnitus I got up and was already triggered. Sad, despair and thoughts that no one wants to really talk about.
Two steps away from the bed and I'm physically exausted and made my way to my computer, thinking will I be able to go throught today...
My first few hours I had to fight not to cry, cope with the fact that I'm stuck in a viscious circle that will only ceased if I end my life..
So I decided to write this post to try to ease my pain and at the same time it might reach and help someone.
Now it is 0700 hrs, I'm glad I wrote these few words, I wish I could give you more.
I wish all of you a wonderful day!
Veteran with PTSD - Klode
Veteran says Ottawa refusing to help treat debilitating condition
Read more: http://www.ctvnews.ca/canada/veteran-says-ottawa-refusing-to-help-treat-debilitating-condition-1.1822597#ixzz3Oi5FUCmA
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Advocate Keith Neville ordered to stop work with veterans' appeals
Keith Neville has worked 48 cases and won appeals in all of them
Keith Neville has successfully advocated for 48 veterans having their cases heard by the Veterans Review and Appeal Board, which provides veterans and other applicants with an independent avenue of appeal for disability decisions made by Veterans Affairs Canada.
In July, the board sent Neville a letter saying he was no longer allowed to represent any veterans in any future cases against the board.
"Forty-eight cases were done and 48 cases were overturned," Neville said Tuesday. "So I've been making them look bad."
The letter from the board stated the requirements for representing a client have changed.
READ MORE: http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/nova-scotia/advocate-keith-neville-ordered-to-stop-work-with-veterans-appeals-1.2899605
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